Terminated

Yesterday at about 3pm, my boss and I pulled two chairs up to the round table in the center of the room and I was canned. I was let go, laid off, relieved of my position, I was, as he put it, being terminated. This was not a shock, as I often wondered how it did not happen sooner. I have been telling anyone that would listen that the magazine I have been working at was going under. I was the realistic one. However, for one brief moment, after hearing his words, I was like “What the …..????” He apologized, told me I could get unemployment, he would sign any necessary papers and if I needed anything to further my career to let him know.

This was not because of the depressed economic state the world is in. This was due to years of mismanagement by someone who was in no position to be in charge. Enough said there, on to my future.

I left for the day. I had to tell someone. While I waited for the elevator I poked my head into the acupuncturists office down the hallway and told the office manager I had recently become friendly with. She gave me her condolences. By the time I got home there were emails from her and messages on myFacebook wall offering her assistance in helping me file for unemployment.

I got a seat on the B train and started thinking. I began to get excited thinking of all the things I could do….set up and Etsy account, sell Disney contact sheet/photo collages, I could go to DC around the inauguration and although I would not get anywhere close to the swearing in I could photograph all the people wearing Obama inspired clothes and pins. I could take Meca to the vet to have her spayed and pick her up at a reasonable time, instead of getting her after work. I could babysit, cat sit, work on my blogs, look for funding for the organization I want to work for….the list went on, all the way to Newkirk Avenue and then two stops on the Q to Avenue J.

At midnight, I lay in bed and began to freak out.
My husband and I talked. I was able to sleep.

Today is a new day.

P.S. I have started some pages, to the right to list my budgeting efforts and conserving ideas.